I wanna killed myself tonight, even though it was new year eve.

When I was waiting for the bus in Little Neck at 9 p.m., i felt so sad and lonely!  I didn't know where is my spot in this country.  I didn't know where is my home.  I didn't know who I can believe in! 

Sad!!!

I miss my friend in China.  I miss my love in China.  He can give me hope.  He can make me laugh.  But in here,  from day and night, I have to work and work.  I wanted to have a good sleep during weekend,  but there was someone always push me into the library.  I hate this kind of life!

I hate someone,  I hate it so much!